On the Wings of Change

Mercy spring daffodils

I am flying on the wings of change, cresting the waves and listening to the small sounds of the quiet voice inside. How did I get to this place? Where am I going? What is this magic in knowing and not knowing, faith in doubt, belief in uncertainty?

It is as if the universe has opened up before me, a clear path appearing in the mist, the broken wings healing. The  renewal of change is beckoning. The whole world looks different from this new vantage point. There are possibilities where there were none before. It’s not that they weren’t there – I just couldn’t see clear to the other side.

The path is not without its twists and turns. It is not necessarily the easy path or the one most people would take. It is not about doing what others expect us to do. It is about following our own heart and the voice inside. One needs stillness and quiet to even hear that voice amidst all the noise and chaos in this world. It is above all about being true to oneself.

Sears Park May

I am working on changing and rearranging my life so that I will have the emotional space to write and to create art. Some things are in place and a few things need a little more time. Having patience can be a challenge, especially when it has been a long journey and  you are excited about the possibilities that are now unfolding.

There are things that I need to let go of and move on. There are things that I need to embrace. Knowing the difference and making it happen is empowering. As Father Dempsey said in a homily at St. Mary Church a few years ago….

No matter the past, no matter the present

The future can be different —

There is always the possibility for change.

 

art journal quote change

I am very grateful to everyone who has provided support and encouragement as I step onto my new path and move forward. You have given me the courage and strength to embrace the wings of change, bringing growth and new direction.

Going with the Flow

quote life you planned

Anyone who knows me well is aware that going with the flow is a huge challenge for me. I plan everything out to the smallest detail. I keep running to do lists that I constantly update, adding new tasks as they come up  and removing tasks that have been accomplished. When something does not go according to plan, I take a step back, evaluate, and readjust my plans.

Since the Mindfulness retreat last fall, and the Prayer and Reflection retreat in March, I have been  exploring a new way of being that involves going with the flow. Because of this, new opportunities have appeared on the horizon that were not part of my plans or even on my radar screen. When you are busy working on preconceived notions of how your life should be, you don’t notice the small whispers or the winds of change blowing your way. You look, but you don’t see. You go through the motions, but you don’t experience life to its fullest.

Things are happening in my life that I could not have envisioned 6 months ago. I was complacent. I was asleep. I was focusing on a small part of my world and unaware of all that life holds.

quilt near yet far

Today is Easter Sunday in the Christian tradition, celebrating the resurrection of Christ.  Usually I just go to Easter mass but this year I participated in Holy Week. I went on an ecumenical Cross walk on Good Friday and we visited 5 churches around town. Different priests and ministers took turns telling a real world story and then we read a prayer from the handout to cover each of the 14 stations of the cross. Story topics included immigrants/ refugees, human trafficking, environment/ climate change, mass incarceration in the U.S., abuse, social justice, racial inequality, etc.  It was very moving. The underlying message was that churches need to take action on these issues.

I attended the Easter Vigil mass last night, something I discovered a few years ago. It starts with a sacred fire outside of the church and passing the light from candle to candle throughout the gathering of people. Then there is a procession into the dark church. I remember the first time I attended and it was quite moving. It is a long mass with a lot of readings and there is a lot of singing. One year I sang in the church choir at Easter and that was really special. Everything looks different when you are sitting up front in the choir.

quilt northern lights

I look forward to sharing more news with you as changes unfold. I have small plans and big plans, and they are rooted in going with the flow and based upon a new way of looking at life.

Losing Sight of Shore

I watched Losing Sight of Shore on Netflix last night, a documentary about four  women (six in all with crew changes) who rowed from San Francisco to Australia, with stops in Hawaii and Samoa. They were on the ocean traveling for 274 days and it was an amazing story. It reaffirmed my belief that a woman can do anything that she puts her mind to, no matter how large the obstacles or barriers in her way.

I would like to share an excerpt of a post from my previous blog. The post was written over 4 years ago and it speaks to impermanence, change, challenges, and not giving up. Prior to maryart life, and before that blogspot, I had a proprietary blog hosted with my website on a major hosting platform for eight years. When I moved my website hosting to the current location to obtain WordPress hosting, that blog no longer existed. But I PDF’d all of the posts before disconnecting and saved them on my hard drive and flash drive backup.

The Impermanence of Things, October 2014

NBMAA Wall of Cups

The wall of cups at the New Britain Museum of American Art (NBMAA) is gone. It had been there in the stairwell for a long while and I knew it was temporary but I was still sad to see it go. I found this picture I took of it the first time I saw it. It’s an installation piece and the entire piece was made of plastic drinking cups that are adhered to the wall in a swirling pattern. It was fascinating to walk around it and look at it and I wish that I had more photos but I don’t. But I will always have my memories of being in the same space as this beautiful work of art and what I was feeling at that time. It does speak to the ephemeral nature of life and the impermanence of things. All things must pass and nothing lasts forever. It is so important to enjoy what you have and the people in your life and be thankful.

You can see the edge of the blue Chihuly glass sculpture on the left side of the wall of cups photo. To fill the void left by the removal of the wall of cups , they brought in a companion Chihuly piece to share space with the existing sculpture. The two glass sculptures are quite striking appearing together like this, as if in a dance of light. When two people come together with feelings of love they each bring their own light with them and together they make a greater light that is more than what was there before. The whole is greater than the sum of the parts. And yes, that is how I feel and I hope somehow you know this and understand.

NBMAA Chihuly Glass 1

It was a delightful day at the museum bringing warm thoughts and feelings to my heart. A day like this lets you leave worries behind and rejoice in being alive. It also makes you realize what is important and what isn’t worth getting upset about. I do fine hand work and like to embellish my small quilts with beads, buttons, charms, yarn, sea glass, shells, and other things, but I have not been able to sew with a hand sewing needle, except with great difficulty, for about a year now. See my quilt/fiber handwork here. I am finally facing up to the problem with my hand not being successfully treated by the regular doctor, so I am seeing a hand surgeon on Friday to talk about my options and schedule surgery. I need to be able to sew little objects onto things, not just quilts but paper too, so I am going for it! Glue is fine but stitching is more permanent, even in an impermanent world. [Today I would like to add a note that my surgeon recommended alternative treatment and my hand is working much better now. I can hold a needle and my manual dexterity is much better.]

NBMAA Chihuly Glass 2